Giving is better than Receiving

bawi, bawi, fidi, tial, judee, nyun hei par ( okay my spelling of their Myanmar names are not too good,
but hey at least i have remembered how to call them!:)

Yesterday i gave a box of things away to my friend J* who is a teacher in charge of the CSO, Myanmar Refugee School. Some personal stuff for her as well as stationaries. What you might not know about me is that i have so much stationaries, i don't even know how i accumulated them! Like heaps. That today when i went to school teaching one of the little kids class of 6 students, J* asked the kids to thank me. (" Thank you teacher!,".. and one girl started to kiss her pencil haha.) Now they each have a mechanical pencil!!!! I have about 10+ stashed in my room and she gave them all to individual kids and now they each have one!. Its so crazy because, come to think of it i have so many!!!! I don't know what for, convenience? And most i don't even remember buying :s... But from one person, so many can have!...

It really makes me think, because i do want to be a good steward of my finance, and i feel that up until now, i have just dealt with my finance like the rest of the world. Other than that, in this culture, its the serve yourself culture and even more in the West. I look after myself, you look after yourself, well because the government made it possible.

If i spend on one Expensive meal of RM50, i can feed about 20 children lunch!!! How insane to think about it. And we don't know what its like not to have. I grew up in comfort, and i am sure the rest of you too, we do not know what it is like to just eat plain rice for dinner with egg and soya sauce. 

Just yesterday grandma was telling me how, while she was raising 5 kids ( the six yet to be born ), during a Chinese festival, they did not have money to provide for their kids to eat good celebratory food, and grandma felt so bad when the kids look at their neighbors gobbling down their delicious meal. And i am thinking, if i can get a decent job, and not focus on the money but in being in a job where who's needs i can meet and also be able to share Gods word and be a light. That with whatever i earn, i can share, or meet others needs and not just focus inwardly.

I know its difficult to do. But i need to start somewhere. I do hope to be able to manage whatever God gives me in a way which most please Him. I may fail many times, and have much more to learn. I am still really learning a lot. I feel as a Christian i am learning like a really foreign custom from the world and its not easy to carry it out especially not without Gods strength. But with God all things are possible :)

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Today i also taught a bunch of them to sing " This little light of mine "( as J* suggested for me to teach them a song because they don't know many ), Thank God while i was singing for them to listen it did not go out of tune ( because honestly i have never been singing material) But Phew*! :)