It is like walking into the unknown.

Why are we so reluctant to try something new. While starting this whole business thing, its like there are so many decisions to make and sometimes you think "am i making the best decision, choice, etc." But i guess we have to progress and make a decision non the less. And the decision should be to move forward. Not to stagnant nor to turn back.

Just give it a go. Give it your best. Come out with many options give yourself a deadline, and go with the best. I don't want to be to scared to risk it. I do not even know how it would turn out. I guess its like everything else, we just have to believe, believe in ourselves, believe in our product and what we create and want to give to society. Take the leap.

Shape Shifter.

I need to stick to One thing.
One idea. the best one.
And go all in with it.

and just go with the best option of the time. things doesn't have to be perfect , nothing is in the beginning. :)

A morning person.

morning light

Okay, it may seem contradictory as i am writing this at 12.30am but hear me out. I am a morning person. I would rather wake up 5.30am for breakfast than go out to a nice bar at 10pm. I just love the day, and during the night i just love to be at home. If outside, then it would be to look out at the stars or something but that is kinda a silly thing to do in the city. I would rather be at home sewing than out at a fancy restaurant drinking champagne and singing karaoke .

You see the reason why i am still up writing is because i went out to meet with friends, to dine and chat. i love my friends, but once i got home i went straight back to sewing at 11pm+. I guess i just love what i do. And i would rather work on something with someone than just talk with them about the weather and so on so forth.

I have pins on my bed now.. yeah i woke up this morning feeling a prick on my back. I guess, free acupuncture? Need to clean up soon and head of to bed. I did have quite a hefty dessert tonight so the sugar might keep me from sleeping a lil. Its a problem of mine, i am exactly like a kid, just do not feed me sugar at night.

and like a plant, wake up when the sun is up, soak up all the light energy, photosynthesize during the day and when dusk comes and the sun goes to sleep so does Noelle.

Tomorrow is another day and i am excited!, Another thing about me is that i make a schedule for each day because if not i might forget. I have too much thoughts, so schedules really do help me get things done.

This post is pretty much rambles. Must be the Sugar. Sigh.

OMG SLEEP TIME!

December.

If you placed December in Week term, December would be the "weekend". Its just the THAT time of the year!

Probably also my most favorite month of the year. Its like the clearing off of the year in anticipation for the new year :)

On a side note, I've never had a birthday that was not awkward. Born in the middle of December, that is when everyone is on Holidays and getting ready for Christmas, it doesn't even feel right celebrating a birthday ;s..in a way. Anyways!

I remember how usually holidays, i would holiday. But over this 2 years being a teacher i have learnt to use holidays wisely. Perhaps because teaching was rather a relaxing job for me, and during the accumulative 3 months holiday, i question myself, 'what do i do?'.. Its always good to have a plan.

I've learnt that time was not for wasting (neither are holidays) . I could do so much! Why should i waste it watching TV, or scrolling my news feed on Facebook, stalking people etc. If i spend everyday making cookies i bet i'll be a cookie Master in no time. So if i watch Tv everyday i'll most probably be be a Highly Qualified time waster.

But the thing is, if you are working in a very crazy work environment that is extremely demanding and have much of OT's then by all means spend your holidays as you wish! But preferably doing something you love! what you've always wanted to do if you had the time. Catching up with awesome people, Or by relaxing and recuperating before getting back refreshed!

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I remember half way through fashion school i when into anti-fashion mode. my final year project if i came to look back at it now, was pretty much in the lines of making that statement. perhaps that is how i am going to do fashion, by not being.

Perhaps i found the industry extremely Ostentatious. So superficial and fake.( maybe i should not look at it this way, there is nothing wrong with having beautiful designs at a beautiful show with beautiful tall and skinny people ). Well, it is also an industry where there are no moral or values that governs it. Its totally up to you. 

 I guess there are a couple of worlds in fashion co-existing, the Ostentatious ones ( all about the who's wearing what, the name, the status, the money, the luxury, the show ), the Subculture ones (goths, rockers, mods, beatniks ), the pirated ones  ( cheap copies of the above ) and the ones who loves beauty in simplicity, designing and making, which imparts into garments ( what i am for ). I guess in this world this is just how design goes in every area. Different, and to each its own.

Lets leave this talk for another post!

Have a happy December :)